sunny side down.
it's beautiful out today, all smatterings of sunshine and blues. and for some reason, well, for a specific reason, i guess, i am thinking of another sunny time and place. one that exists in the distant past - seven years ago, to be exact. it was the fall of 2002, and my sister and her new husband had just started jobs as lawyers. she asked me if i could go out and spend time with her new puppy, as she felt bad for it, sitting alone all day. i was finishing my degree, and had significantly more time on my hands. and so, every day for a few weeks, i hopped on the streetcar for the long crawl across town to see zoe.
at the time, i had just discovered the magnetic fields, and made endless, enamored mixes composed of stephen merrit's clever melancholy. and so, i sat, on the long crawl, listening to the magnetic fields and gazing out at leaves, leaves everywhere. the songs went so well with fall, and with my rather youthful contemplation of life, of the future, of everything. it was an hour each way, to puppy and back. but i didn't mind. i liked the calming wheeze of the car on the tracks, the sound of '100,00 fireflies' over and over, and the chance to daydream.
growing up, i never minded going to church, or the opera or the symphony - things i was forced to do on a weekly basis - because they gave me the chance to daydream. to carefully construct conversations and scenarios between me and whomever was occupying my thoughts at the time. or to imagine myself in whatever successful job or situation i identified as successful at the time.
anyhow, that fall, i had hours of daydreaming, punctuated by visits with a little dog. a little friend, really. that little friend died this morning, and though i have always secretly scoffed at those who become devastated by the loss of things not human, i feel a tug. a nostalgic sniffle.
yeah, i know - a bit of a downer. not really meant to be one. she had a good seven years. and so have i. just another moment to reflect and think about life. and put on the magnetic fields for the first time in a long while. which isn't so bad at all.
it's beautiful out today, all smatterings of sunshine and blues. and for some reason, well, for a specific reason, i guess, i am thinking of another sunny time and place. one that exists in the distant past - seven years ago, to be exact. it was the fall of 2002, and my sister and her new husband had just started jobs as lawyers. she asked me if i could go out and spend time with her new puppy, as she felt bad for it, sitting alone all day. i was finishing my degree, and had significantly more time on my hands. and so, every day for a few weeks, i hopped on the streetcar for the long crawl across town to see zoe.
at the time, i had just discovered the magnetic fields, and made endless, enamored mixes composed of stephen merrit's clever melancholy. and so, i sat, on the long crawl, listening to the magnetic fields and gazing out at leaves, leaves everywhere. the songs went so well with fall, and with my rather youthful contemplation of life, of the future, of everything. it was an hour each way, to puppy and back. but i didn't mind. i liked the calming wheeze of the car on the tracks, the sound of '100,00 fireflies' over and over, and the chance to daydream.
growing up, i never minded going to church, or the opera or the symphony - things i was forced to do on a weekly basis - because they gave me the chance to daydream. to carefully construct conversations and scenarios between me and whomever was occupying my thoughts at the time. or to imagine myself in whatever successful job or situation i identified as successful at the time.
anyhow, that fall, i had hours of daydreaming, punctuated by visits with a little dog. a little friend, really. that little friend died this morning, and though i have always secretly scoffed at those who become devastated by the loss of things not human, i feel a tug. a nostalgic sniffle.
yeah, i know - a bit of a downer. not really meant to be one. she had a good seven years. and so have i. just another moment to reflect and think about life. and put on the magnetic fields for the first time in a long while. which isn't so bad at all.
posted by mad at 10:49 AM
1 Comments:
Wonderful post. As a massive fan both of the Magnetic Fields and of the importance of daydreaming, I love it.
So sorry to hear about the death of that adorable woofer. :-(
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